may nagtext.....

so i've heard from Teddy Love Joy... :)
it's never too late to apologize,
it's nothing to be ashamed of.
it's a very good bravery and it's shows that you have a soft heart.
i bow to you...
but
we're still hoping and waiting for the other one,
to have a brain.
when will this tale be over....
suck it up!

why me...?

i love to help people, but sometimes and some things i just can't.
but one thing, di ko tlga magets.
why shop if you're "out of budget"???
mahiya ka nmn pls...

great timing..!

just about to talk to mahal,
my z310i sonyericsson, na lowbatt and then dead.
on my way home, got bored, and just about to listen some music.
my iphone need battery charge, kc it's dead.
and just about to text mahal,
my super old nokia, super lowbatt din, just got home it died....
KALOKA!!!
hay, ngaun lahat ng mga cp's ko naka charge pati na rin ang emergency charger ng iphone ko.
hayyyyyyy...!

friday 24 july 2010

pinakaminamahal kong Banah, i will treasure everything we have now, 'til the day i''m gone in this world. but even on that day, i will bring it with me to heaven to the next life to share it with you again. i love you so much aking palaLOVES ♥

thursday 23 july 2010

everynight night before i go to sleep i pray... not just for world peace but family peace too... someday we just have to accept our flaws and be reunited, bcoz we're family, if nobody can accept us as we are then who will..?

dilemma....

this man is like a lolo to me.
he's very kind and nice to me, and very helpful, generous and loves to debate about almost anything with me and others. bcoz he's old and a wiseman.
he's like a lolo i've always wanted.
pero nagseselos ang mahal ko sa kanya.
kc from what he've heard stories about him, he could sense something else.
maybe he's wrong, maybe he's right. but he's a guy too, so he can read moves, he can sense and he understands.
hindi ko na alam kun ano dapat gawin ko.
i love my husband so much and i'm not happy if he feel that way and i feel uncomfortable if he's too.
i understand my pinakaminamahal na bana. i understand his feelings.
but it never occured to me na may ibang meaning ang mga kabutihan na pinapakita ni "lolo" sa akin. kc nga, lolo na nga sya e, and for me he acts like a lolo to me.
well, i sometimes feel i'm his favorite among all our friends.
but still i couldn't think of na may ibang meaning.
darating sya sa special day nmin, maybe he will, maybe he wont.
mayabang rin kc c lolo, minsan iniisip nmin ni rd na puro salita lng c lolo.
but malay ko ba na may HALAGA ang mga bato at ginto, pagnagbibigay ka sa isang tao.
i always thought, na gusto lng ni lolo magpabelieve sa akin at sa mga friendship na, bonggaycious ang regalo nya.
wala nmn akong napili, kc i'm not really into that stuffs, kc nga ang gusto ko lng suotin na salapi ay ang mga bigay lng ni palaLOVES ko. wish ko nga e, na sana ang pinakabagong iphone nlng ang bigay nya. :)
hayyy...
i want my mahal to feel at ease...
bcoz i love him so much..
i have to talk to lolo, but pano ko i break it down sa kanya about sa regalo. in don't-have-to-explain-much-details-very-short-simple-and-makes-almost-sense-way???
paano b?
i guess, i have to tell him the truth.
i don't like stones and gold, i LIKE iphone os4. hehehe :D
joke!
or maybe something like that.
hayyy, tulog na me.
night! night!
i'll be dreaming of my poging husband tonight <33

mahal na mahal kita mahal ko, there's nothing to worry about. kc kahit ano man ang ibigay nya sa akin, hindi masyadong mahalaga para sa akin. ikaw lng pinakaimportante para sa akin. ikaw lng, bana ko. i'll treasure everything we have now, til the day i'm gone in this world. but even on that day, i'll bring it with me to heaven. i love you so much!!!

from Mahal with love...

Bru is BACK! from pinas. na missed kita sobra!

Hayy, ayan may kachikahan na ulit ako...
basta pag magkasama kaming dalawa, wlang katapusang chickahan ever...
inde nauubusan, may continuation pa ang chikas namin, sa susunod na pagkikita at pagsasama.
:)
gumanda ang kutis ng matrona at nagpatattoo pa! naloka ako! :D
at ang pinakahinihintay ko ang padala ni Mahal para sa akin..!

rejoice, yema, loving card with his sweet words and current pics of him tnk u so much tlga Bru sa pagdala mo nitong padala ni Mahal... :)

hayyy.... kinikilig tlga ako makita ang mukha ng bana ko
sana dumating na sa kanya ang pinadala kong love package. :)
i'm loving this so much, writing love letters to my husband.

sana hinding hindi ka magbabago mahal ko... mahal na mahal kita sobra, mmmmwah!

the art in the conversation...

"You twist, and turn and you twirl!" ika nga ni Teddy Love Joy.
i've learned it from him, and ginamit ko nga yan,
and it WORKED! :D
hahahaha!
it was fun :) hehehe!
when you wanted something, you slide it smoothly through til you get it.!
that is the art"e" in the conversation "by the teddy love joy".
kuletz! :) hihihi!

men nu måste jag planera vilken sorts klänning jag ska ha på mig och måste hitta den "perfekta" presenten.

uuuuurgh!

i gotta stop this stupid paranoia!
naiinis na ako sa sarili ko.
i'm trying too hard and too much again.
ano ba yan...
jelly attack n nmn.
baket b?
i really have to fix this...
i am so much better than this..!
i can't make everyone to like me.
actually, i don't need those people!
why am i even wasting my time for them, when i'm not even that important to them.
the hell...
I'M DONE.

sorry guys, nothing's personal just emotional.

Sssssigh

wew!
finally the swe immigration took my call, after the 30 min telefon queue.
tinanong ko about sa appli ni Mahal, baket wla akong natatanggap sulat galing sa kanila.
ano na b ngyari? ano na ang mangyayari.! one month na ah, simula nung interview nya.
i could sense, na medyo nahirapan sumagot ung babae sa fon. chineck nmn nya sa data kung dumating na b yung appli ni Mahal sa kanila from manila.
kararating lng daw, kahapon.
magpapadala na daw sila ng sulat, Q&A.
hayyyy.....
sana dumating na this week. para bumilis nmn...
at least nwala na ang tense ko ngayon. :)

waiting in telephone queue....

this is tense..
calling migrationsverket.
my queue time is 30min.
ang tagal nmn...
gusto ko ng malaman...
sana ok lng..
while waiting, im reading some informations and new updates of migrations website.
geeez, may panibagong krav(demands) n cla.
kailangan may bahay at trabaho ka. at kailangan yung bahay comfort para sa dalawang tao at yung sweldo kailangan pwede mabuhay or mapakain para dalawang tao din.
ano ba yan.!
buti nlng may bahay at trabaho ako.
and ok nmn para sa amin dalawa at yung sweldo ko pwede nmn kaming makakain para sa amin dalawa.
sana ok na para sa kanila.
sana nmn bigyan nila kami ng GREEN signal.
sana madala ko na c Mahal dito.
gusto ko ng makasama ang Mahal ko, plssss Lord...???
hayyyy...
still waiting...
sana hinde maubos ang load ko.
sobrang exciting nmn to, sana ok na.
sagot na pls? :)
fingers cross!

one of those days....

today... technically yesterday since the time now is 01:42 am... i wasn't in a really good and happy mood. i felt so sad and lonely, kahit naka super poker face me sa wrk, laughing with co-workers, but deep inside, i'm so lonely.
i'm feeling sad and lonely and jealousy. this is me.... sometimes i'm like this... self pitying and self confidence just drops down to zer0. this is my worst enemy, feeling down.
come to think about it... it all started with friends.
Bru is on her family vacation in pinas, Bez is in pinas, Mahal is in pinas, Family are busy, time syncronizing is bad bcoz of my wrk sched. and i'm all left alone here... alone.
i have my laptop, to get in touch with somebody in fb, and tv.
my other frens are busy with their own lives, and sometimes... nakakainggit tingnan ang mga pics nila together with other friends. sometimes they remembers me, sometimes they don't. sometimes they show that they care and sometimes they don't.
but i can't blame them for everything... maypagkukulang din ako. like i said, mahirap ang wrk sched ko kaya pag may party sila, and naremember nilang i-invite ako, hindi nmn ako makapunta, kc MAY WRK AKO. pag wla nmn akong wrk, wla nmn okasyon. and pag wlang okasyon at day off ko, i take chances to get a lot of rest and see my Mahal via skype.
i'm so jealous with people who are blessed to have lots of close friends. i'm probably being paranoid, but i just can't help to feel this way... realizing i don't have lots of close friends.
kaya wish ko na sana nandito na ngayon ang Mahal ko sa tabi ko. kahit pagwlng time ang mga frens sa akin, lagi nmn may time ang Mahal ko for me. :) the most important of all...
so well...
it's ok :)
i guess i'll just try my best to be closer to them and find some time to get together with them.
i don't know why, but sometimes i intend to isolate my self from others, when i'm feeling lonely. specially when i'm longing for my mahal.
it's hard to find close friends.
but that's ok too...
kahit hindi marami ang mga close friends ko, they truely care nmn. i'm so thankful that they still love me, appriciates me and understands me, kahit mostly invisible ako at malayo ako sa kanila.
thank you frens..! <3

i'm ok na... :) blogging really helps.. :)
thank you blogger <3

i miss you so much mahal ko... sana maging ok na ang visa mo para makasama na kita dito. so i wont be lonely anymore. you are my bestfriend who i can't live without. i need you in my life. i love you so much <3

bubbles on our special day...

i want bubbles on our special day...
when we come out from the church,
i want some guests blowing bubbles,
and some throwing rice.
i can imagine it will gonna look good on the picture.
<3

da wedding dress...! < 3 < 3 < 3

finally!
i've found my dress :)
this is the one!
<3

my wedding purse < 3

my wedding shoes < 3